Surprise Pregnancy After 12 Years!

Surprise Pregnancy After 12 Years!

There are times I wish that my story were different. Times when I just want things to be simple. You know, like, ‘Hey, I want to start a family now.’ So, we get to it and within 6 months we’re sharing the good news with family and friends.

We had no idea our life would turn out this way. IVF, IUI, surgeries, MTHFR, anemia, miscarriage, twins, full of faith, lack of faith, doubts, trusting God, waiting, waiting, waiting, before one day – POOF – a surprise pregnancy.

Sometimes, I am bitter about how this story of ours is playing out. One minute I’m a hormonal wreck of a mess because I can’t get pregnant. The next I’m as strong as can be; guiding my readers along the journey of education, information, tips, tricks, and TMIs.

But, a long time ago, I made peace with the fact that I’m not in control and, when I did, everything in my life shifted. Read more

Making Homemade Butter: Life Lessons from the Kitchen

Making Homemade Butter: Life Lessons from the Kitchen

Ah, the life of a writer… finding similarities in the oddest of scenarios. One of my “New Year’s Resolutions”, is to source my food holistically and locally. This in hopes of successfully coming alongside the low iron deficiency anemia and MTHFR that I’ve been diagnosed with.

So, I decided to try my hand at making butter. That’s right. Butter.

Insert… a homestead pic. 😎 She’s gone simple. 

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Musings of a Life on Mission

Musings of a Life on Mission

It’s Sunday. The final day of 2017 and it’s a chilly one. Coffee steaming from our mugs is calling us to sip. Brooks and I are sitting by the wood stove hearing the crackle of fire. Flashes of light are bursting through the wood stove.

Thoughts and wonderment are stirring my heart about the close of one year and start of another. How will God move in our life in 2018? What call to action will we hear?

It’s peaceful in this house, exactly as it should be.

As I sit here taking in the final day of 2017, I am reminded of God’s encouragement for us to look ahead. We run a hard race here on this imperfect earth. The days filling our time here seem futile. They can be full of disappointments, regrets, and bitterness and it’s easy to get that way.

I never blame a person for feeling these emotions. I’ve felt them too over the years. Plenty of bible characters have lived their fair share of turmoil. We’re not alone in this.

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How We’re Improving Our Finances in 2018

How We’re Improving Our Finances in 2018

When Brooks and I started our life together, we had a very specific plan in place for our future – career and financially speaking. There were many components to that plan – debt freedom, investing, business pursuits, farming, and what I call life living pursuits (travel & recreation). Slowly but surely we’ve been whittling away at those things and here we are at the end of 2017, which means it’s time to review them and plan out 2018.

We do all of the standard practices. Things like live within our means, stay out of debt (& work like crazy to dig out if we do accrue some), save for the future, cut the unnecessary spending, drive older cars, eat at home (a lot!), and invest wisely in areas that we are familiar with (investing into things we understand like businesses and real estate gives us a little more decision power on how our funds are handled).

But, I wanted to take our financial management to the next level and invite you to do so along side us. Read more

A Different Kind of Christmas: What to do When Christmas Isn’t Merry

I have always envisioned Christmas morning at my house. It’s a dream of mine to wake up and watch my children & husband open gifts while I sip my coffee. From there, I’d move to my farmhouse kitchen, still wrapped in my bathrobe, where I would scramble some eggs and whip up some monkey bread. Definitely hearing the sheep baaing, the rooster crowing, and some cows mooing outside of my window while grabbing for mug-o-joe number two. Girl gotta wake up… Read more

Faith & Medical Intervention: My Story of Seeking a Doctor

Faith & Medical Intervention: My Story of Seeking a Doctor

I’ve gone back and forth about writing this post for a few reasons. First, there are components of my faith and personal walk with the Lord that are private. There are prayers that I pray, convictions that I work through, and even celebrations that will remain between He and I. I’ve wondered if God’s words to me about seeking medical intervention were just for me.

Secondly, coinciding with the first reason, while I want to encourage women and couples in their own journey I didn’t fully trust that some who came across my blog (especially if I don’t know you and your faith) would read my post and use it as a rationalization for them to seek treatments. I know how us infertiles can get. We look for any reason and approval to do something that maybe we ought not. Read more

From Newlywed to Newly Infertile: Encouragement for the Infertile Newlywed

From Newlywed to Newly Infertile: Encouragement for the Infertile Newlywed

I have been thinking about all of the young women around me getting engaged. Perhaps even newly married now and I ponder the realization that they may find themselves walking the same road of infertility as me.

To you newlyweds, there may be a time when you decide “it’s time”. It’s time to grow your family. You’re ready to raise little ones to love Jesus as much as you do. You plan, plan, and plan some more. Start Pinterest boards of pretty nurseries, how to make your own baby food, and how to stay fit while pregnant.

But, 6 months goes by and you’re still not pregnant. You do a little head tilt in wonderment. A year in and you start to worry. Perhaps 6 more months goes by and you start to unravel a bit. Then, it happens. A girlfriend, sibling, cousin, or coworker announces she’s pregnant.

That’s when all sense of control breaks loose.  Read more

5 Changes That Have Made the BIGGEST Impact to my Health

5 Changes That Have Made the BIGGEST Impact to my Health

As you are well aware of now, I had a health crisis that started (unbeknownst to me) last fall. Many of my issues stemmed from a genetic disorder called MTHFR and I was unaware that I had it. It was this genetic disorder and our miscarriage last year that triggered a terrible response in my body. It made me into somebody I had never seen before. Memory loss, dizziness, weight gain, blackouts, the whole gamut. I didn’t know what was going on and the scariest part was that I thought I was dying because I felt so foreign. I was unrecognizable even to me.

It was that abnormality that was the catalyst that set me free from a season coming to an end. I just didn’t know it yet.

But, talk of the seasonality of ministry, work, and focus is for another day.

Let’s get to the nitty gritty of today’s topic…

Today on the blog, I want to share with you 5 of my favorite things I implemented that helped get me back to my old self… and really, an even better version of myself.

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Keep Going: A Note of Encouragement

Keep Going: A Note of Encouragement

Bouncing back. That’s the ability I’ve been gaining back these days and it feels so awesome. Since the miscarriage in 2016, I’ve been going through one of the worst seasons ever! I normally work my way through the messes of life and come out stronger. But, not this time.

Losing that ability was rough and foreign.

Here we are today, a little over a year later and I’m as perky as ever! Praise the Lord!!!

I’ve been working really hard this summer to guard my life from the intrusions that come quickly and almost silently. They’re the obligations that pop up and you feel like you have to say “yes” to. My summer has been quieter and that’s been so good for my wellness track.

But, these last few weeks have put some cracks in my armor. Read more

Empty

Empty

“As I go about my days, I can’t help but have a pure disgust for this world. It’s awful. I spend everyday watching as people hate one another. They bow to their idols. They choose themselves first… I look around my own house, marriage, and life to find so much idolatrous clutter. I am disgusted!

I feel like my body is crawling with 1000 bugs and I am trying to throw them off. Panic sets in and I’ve become more and more desperate to purge my life of sin and immorality and carnality. I wish to be a minimalist. Not because it’s a fad. But, because my life has taken on a form of its own. It has followed the gluttonous ways of this world and I no longer want anything to do with it…” [an entry from my journal] Read more