Have you ever been in a place in life where you look around and think “I should be more disappointed than I am”? That moment when you are missing a critical component to your life and yet, you have peace, joy, and just… shear contentment, anyways?
That’s where I am. Despite still missing some babies running around, I am basking in the sunlight that I find myself in.
I have so much coming down the pike and I am so excited about all of it. In this time of waiting, I have finally kicked my butt into gear and started getting stuff done. It was time to get cracking on those dreams I’ve had on hold for a decade or more and it just so happens that you guys get to share in the excitement.
In my last post, I talked about living life outside of infertility and how I had wasted so much time just sitting around… wallowing. But, while I’m waiting for God’s perfect timing, I’ve resolved to get after some of the passions and dreams that He has placed on my heart.
After the miscarriage, I wanted to take several months to decompress and, in essence, get distracted. After a month or two of focusing on physical healing, I started praying and meditating on God’s word and looking deep, deep into my heart for the perfect work to use as a distraction. I found it.
If you know me in real life, you know that I LOVE to personalize everything. My car has a personalized license plate, the back window has a ton of stickers, this blog is very personal, and I am ALL. ABOUT. COLOR. Seriously, I’m that girl wearing hot pink pants and a yellow top to church. Ya just can’t miss me. #wheresJilohtheresheis
With that said, I’ve been working on a super special project for this blog, as well as, this year’s #NIAW and I can’t wait to share the details. I’m solidifying the final bits today and adding a page to my blog just for it. It’s been a portion of my chosen distraction these last several months and it worked out perfectly that it’ll be ready just in time for NIAW.
In my next blog post, I will tell ya all the how and why this project came about.